Father in law: Rest in Peace

Earlier morning 29/06/2009 , my father-in-law finally lost his battle with cancer. Surrounded by loved ones, he took his last breaths on this world and moved on to a better one. No longer will he be besieged by the pain that defined his last weeks among us.
I cannot even begin to express how truly blessed I feel to have had him as a father-in-law. I loved him very deeply and he loved me too. Though we couldn't have been more different from one another, from the very first moment that we met, he embraced me into his family and loved me as if I were one of his own.
Although he was the strong, silent type, my father-in-law was one of the kindest and gentlest men I have ever known in my entire life. In a world defined by greed and chaos, he lived his life simply and honorably. Nothing gave him more pleasure in this world than his family, his God. My respect for him was immeasurable.
However, what I love and admire about him the most was his love for all his grandchildren. He will cooked what ever his grandchild like to eat the most. Hubby and I frequently talked about how he managed their child moment until the last of his breath it was an inspiration to the rest of us..
Sadly, my father-in-law's last days were filled with silent. Although he could hear us, he was unable to communicate with us and could hardly move. His organs had begun shutting down and his body was emaciated from the ravages of the spreading cancer. Yet, the only stimuli that he would ever react to was the soothing voice of his wife,children and grandchild.
About two days, we gently propped him up so that we could change his cloth and bedding.He did not move at all.It was the last act of a dying man. He couldn't used every remaining ounce of strength in his dying body so he could not lovingly express to us just how much he deeply loved us. It was one of the most beautiful and touching moments I've ever witnessed in my entire life and I'll never forget it for as long as I live. Just writing about it here brings me to tears.
It's true what they say. Love does conquer all.
Farewell, dad. We love you and will miss you forever. Though we're tormented by grief and saddened by our loss, we pray that you're finally at peace and we look forward to seeing you on the other side.

Beloved father in law pass away

29/06 was the last breath of my fil near by our side at 01.16am.....Funeral will be held on 02/07.....

The 19th day......

Hi......I'm here again in front of my dusty laptop he he he. Just come back yesterday from kampung a bit tired until one of my sil helper said that I'm kurus already huhhhhh.

I woke up early today because I and my sil bring our fil to QE Palliative Care Unit for fil 1st appointment. We never tell him that we need this kind of service for helping him scared he don't like it. Lucky he don't have to stay there for 3 night. Normally all patient in Palliative care have to stay 3 night for check up but for my fil case it's a bit special as request. There's one lady doctor who's entertained us I think she was my late daddy doctor she very nice and friendly doctor. She said we have to tell our fil about his condition rather then he staying in the darkness. So, I told my sil I 100% agreed with the doctor kesian juga bah kan if he keep eating all the medication but he still felt the same pain. The doctor said she want to meet all my fil children for interview it's a normal process for those who need this Palliative service.

After all this matter Anniesen always by my fil side. When her kung2 cough she will run and get his kung2 small bucket,when her kung2 go for a walked she will accompany him,when her kung2 want to get up from his bed she will pull his and hold his hand. What a pity little girl she's very kind hearted.

The 11th days...

Hi...... just come back from my fil house at Kinarut since Wednesday. Day by day my fil become more weaker. Some story came out today.....This morning my fil asked us bring him for a coffee to his favourite Kopi Tiam at Kinarut town I and two of my sil just bring him to not make him disappointed then. After that around 9am my sil called me to go in my fil room. There my fil hold my hand and said that he ready to go......I said, ok dad you can go. We all let you go just go toward the bright light I said.

Then around 2pm my hubby brother told us that he will ask the Ta Pai Kung about my fil situation. When he come back he told us that may be fil will go tonight.....He said the moment was from 6pm to 12am if he still alive this moment that mean he still can stain for one more week. What a scary moment I tell u all. Kesian juga bah my fil kept screaming when the sickness attack him.....But after 12am nothing happen so we all can sleep and take a rest.....

The 5th day...

Today so far my fil appetite 60% ok. Beside taken porridge he can eat a small amount of rice with soup. Today the doctor stop the moffin(pain killer) already only the vitamin left. So, may be he can go back kinarut tomorrow. If he go back it mean we all also have to follow him for a few days there if not he will feel lonely.
Actually he won't go back to Kinarut but I beg him, told him the good reason why he must go back there. You know what I told him? He he he I said if in Kinarut everybody can play card's ha ha ha...Nolah only to make him happy mah kan....
Many thing have to ready before that tomorrow...
1. find a good helper (someone who nurse alike)
2. buy the ballon bed so he will feel comfortable this one can cost almost RM2k
3. ready the lazy chair
4. more space
to be continue.....