Beloved father in law pass away

29/06 was the last breath of my fil near by our side at 01.16am.....Funeral will be held on 02/07.....

The 19th day......

Hi......I'm here again in front of my dusty laptop he he he. Just come back yesterday from kampung a bit tired until one of my sil helper said that I'm kurus already huhhhhh.

I woke up early today because I and my sil bring our fil to QE Palliative Care Unit for fil 1st appointment. We never tell him that we need this kind of service for helping him scared he don't like it. Lucky he don't have to stay there for 3 night. Normally all patient in Palliative care have to stay 3 night for check up but for my fil case it's a bit special as request. There's one lady doctor who's entertained us I think she was my late daddy doctor she very nice and friendly doctor. She said we have to tell our fil about his condition rather then he staying in the darkness. So, I told my sil I 100% agreed with the doctor kesian juga bah kan if he keep eating all the medication but he still felt the same pain. The doctor said she want to meet all my fil children for interview it's a normal process for those who need this Palliative service.

After all this matter Anniesen always by my fil side. When her kung2 cough she will run and get his kung2 small bucket,when her kung2 go for a walked she will accompany him,when her kung2 want to get up from his bed she will pull his and hold his hand. What a pity little girl she's very kind hearted.

The 11th days...

Hi...... just come back from my fil house at Kinarut since Wednesday. Day by day my fil become more weaker. Some story came out today.....This morning my fil asked us bring him for a coffee to his favourite Kopi Tiam at Kinarut town I and two of my sil just bring him to not make him disappointed then. After that around 9am my sil called me to go in my fil room. There my fil hold my hand and said that he ready to go......I said, ok dad you can go. We all let you go just go toward the bright light I said.

Then around 2pm my hubby brother told us that he will ask the Ta Pai Kung about my fil situation. When he come back he told us that may be fil will go tonight.....He said the moment was from 6pm to 12am if he still alive this moment that mean he still can stain for one more week. What a scary moment I tell u all. Kesian juga bah my fil kept screaming when the sickness attack him.....But after 12am nothing happen so we all can sleep and take a rest.....

The 5th day...

Today so far my fil appetite 60% ok. Beside taken porridge he can eat a small amount of rice with soup. Today the doctor stop the moffin(pain killer) already only the vitamin left. So, may be he can go back kinarut tomorrow. If he go back it mean we all also have to follow him for a few days there if not he will feel lonely.
Actually he won't go back to Kinarut but I beg him, told him the good reason why he must go back there. You know what I told him? He he he I said if in Kinarut everybody can play card's ha ha ha...Nolah only to make him happy mah kan....
Many thing have to ready before that tomorrow...
1. find a good helper (someone who nurse alike)
2. buy the ballon bed so he will feel comfortable this one can cost almost RM2k
3. ready the lazy chair
4. more space
to be continue.....

The 4th days....

Today I picked my bil(my husband only brother) daughter from school. It's extra class for UPSR student this holiday. After that we straight away to SMC. There I meet my fil doctor then he said my fil condition today just ok. Actually as I knew from my sil this morning my fil want to go back. We asked the doctor about this already he said if his condition is good and blood sugar level won't drop he can go back.

The 3rd days...

Actually today have to attend Ethan's 2nd birthday but can't make it. Happy 2nd birthday Ethan sorry auntie and Anniesen can't make it very sorry.

Yesterday my fil asked me cook some kampung dish it's ikan basung cook with asam. When I reached at SMC I can hear they all saying my name he he he...It's about my ikan basung lah...My fil waiting for it omg. Lucky found the ikan basung if not I'm in big trouble.

This time he eat a lot of rice with basung sup he said it's very delicious lol.. Hm hm hm ok lah a bit pinky face I have. Im and Anniesen in SMC from 11am to 3pm today so a bit long days for children like her until Anniesen fall asleep. Before we go back my fil complained that his stomach not feeling well he asked me put the axe oil and massage his stomach. I noticed that his stomach become bigger then usual but I didn't tell him I scared it will make him scared. I told my sil about his condition she said it's the sign when the cancer cell spreading. It's mean nomore hope at all?

My father in law

Today 06/06/09 was the day that shooked everybody to dead....allllmost. Actually this problem was started yesterday when I arrived from our vacation. I went to my fil room and meet him but he still sleeping so I didn't kacau him la. After a few minute I go in again I noticed something wrong already. So, I called everybody in my sil called my fil to wake up but he didn't responded. He freeze and keep closing his eyes so apa lagi we all sent him to SMC then.

When we reach there the doctor told us that his body sugar level was very low. So my fil was given the glucose and antibiotic. After a while he woke up but he can't recognized us at all and he kept crying. When he cried it very hurt our feeling you know.....It's remind me of my late Daddy God Bless my Daddy soul. Amen.

Today my older nephew arrived early because of this matter. Before we go to SMC we have our breakfast at one of the famous mee at Tanjung Aru . Suddenly, Susan called up and told me the bad news. The bad news was not that **** ya..... The doctor told everybody to get ready because my fil condition was bad. Anytime he will go....that mean. After the call my tiers dropped suddenly. I told the grandchildren who's following me they also cried at the coffee shop a shocked. After this have to go there again.....Very sorry pep if you can't read or understand what I wrote because I'm not good in English.

Just come back....

Hi pep, quit long time I didn't upgrade my blog. Just come back from our vacation ah ya kl only bah. They's a few picture of Anniesen but have to upload later he he he.....